Sunday, March 28, 2010

2

I didn't spend the day working out details for a birthday party. I didn't get to watch my son blow out his candles. I didn't get to watch my son unwrap his presents. It's his birthday and it's not fair that he's not here. I made it through the day, but it was hard. It was especially hard when we went to visit him. I shouldn't have to go to the cemetary to visit my son on his birthday. It shouldn't be like this, but it is what it is and I have to deal with this everyday, every birthday. I'm angry, sad, upset, heartbroken, jealous, but I'm also proud. Proud to be the mother of a beautiful boy who has changed my life forever.
Happy Birthday to my sweet baby boy on his 2nd birthday.

Definitely miss you......

My new bracelet from my parents...

A little gift for Mia from her mimi and papaw..



Visiting Connor tonight.
His little sister will never know how much she means to us....
A day I will remember and relive forever and ever....
I love you baby.
Mommy and daddy miss you and long to hold you just one more time...

3 comments:

Paige said...

Happy heavenly birthday to sweet connor. Each "milestone" is such an emotional tole- so hard to be so thankful for our little raibow babies, yet miss our firstborns so very much. Thanks for sharing your beautiful family- all 4 of you!

Lysana said...

So sweet, and so sad. He is beautiful. I am so sorry.

Sara said...

I am sorry I didn't comment sooner - I have been bit by a nasty stomach bug.

I know how horribly difficult the birthdays are - and the holidays, and every other day of the week. I did think of you guys on Connor's birthday. My prayers are always with you!